A routine visit to the family physician the other day turned out to be more than just routine…..A suspected prognosis, that does not look so good. I have a follow up with a specialist tomorrow evening. When I heard the possible causes from my doctor, I turned pale…didn’t knew what to do….instead of continuing to the office, I just drove back home. I was worried, gloomy and upset and spent the whole day at home.
None of my responses did me anygood…..I could be sitting at home and worrying myself …but how would it change the reality of the situation? So, I shrugged it off and continued with my normal routine. It was time to check Blue Mountain for the quarterly journal. I was pleasantly surprised to read the latest issue (summer 2005) of the journal, it was as if someone sat and collated it for me. Reading the journal lifted my spirits.
Christine Easwaran in her introduction to the journal writes:
"How short life is? Too short not to love, too short not to care. This has a direct bearing on daily life. People who are selfish forget their mortality. People who remember their mortality – and the mortality of all those around them – have no time to be unkind, no time to be selfish."
"For it is in the mind, that the storms of life really blow. What matters is not so much the turmoil outside us as the weather within…….Life graciously provides us with innumerable little incidents like this, which instead of irritants can become opportunities for spiritual growth."
I just hope and pray that the suspected prognosis turns out to be false and this turns out to be blessing in disguise.